in here i still have to thank you those who ever spend their time on listening to my story
it's kind of bored right?
but i'm so appreciate that i'm not alone to handle these problems
i feel relieved and i know at the end i have to stand up by myself
Thanks =] you gals are great
Monday, November 4, 2013
i screw it up myself at the end
i know i should have put it down
but it still early to put it down right?
being four months plus together but i am so tired
i feel like i'm losing myself because what you gonna asking me to do is more than i can do for you
it's kind of heartbreaking when i had to say something that i have to let it go
after breaking up i return to single life.
i am regret because you been hell good to me
i am selfish and i wanted to be the priority
i'm in recovery stage and emotion isn't so easy to control
i am pretend to be a strong girl
is my heart being ok after these? i'm not
it was not easy to say those "let's break up"
i can feel my heart is itchy and hurt
it is painful
was it worth to let it go?
well he is really does love me
kinda unable to adopt to less messaging life
but life still goes on right?
well i'll be fine.
but it still early to put it down right?
being four months plus together but i am so tired
i feel like i'm losing myself because what you gonna asking me to do is more than i can do for you
it's kind of heartbreaking when i had to say something that i have to let it go
after breaking up i return to single life.
i am regret because you been hell good to me
i am selfish and i wanted to be the priority
i'm in recovery stage and emotion isn't so easy to control
i am pretend to be a strong girl
is my heart being ok after these? i'm not
it was not easy to say those "let's break up"
i can feel my heart is itchy and hurt
it is painful
was it worth to let it go?
well he is really does love me
kinda unable to adopt to less messaging life
but life still goes on right?
well i'll be fine.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
thesis supervisor =)
well, felt so happy
why? because a lecturer came to me and asked:" do you want to me to be your supervisor?"
it's my final year and i need to write a thesis (10,000 words) which must be under a supervisor
i am so happy because my college rarely to have a lecturer came to ask you
mostly will choose randomly and group into
there are only two lecturers (as i heard) will pick up the student
and luckily i am enlisted! SIX out of hundred were grouped under a supervisor
and this lecturer was the one i wish to under
may be it's just a small matter, but i am so glad that lecturer did watch my assignment thoroughly
finally seek his attention!
hopefully i am not disappointing him
better choose my topic asap!
[Best of Luck] to me!
why? because a lecturer came to me and asked:" do you want to me to be your supervisor?"
it's my final year and i need to write a thesis (10,000 words) which must be under a supervisor
i am so happy because my college rarely to have a lecturer came to ask you
mostly will choose randomly and group into
there are only two lecturers (as i heard) will pick up the student
and luckily i am enlisted! SIX out of hundred were grouped under a supervisor
and this lecturer was the one i wish to under
may be it's just a small matter, but i am so glad that lecturer did watch my assignment thoroughly
finally seek his attention!
hopefully i am not disappointing him
better choose my topic asap!
[Best of Luck] to me!
tired of arguing
i am so tired of arguing
sometime i would prefer to argue than being quiet whole day
but every week we have to argue over a little matter, i am so tiring
i am so tired to seek the true intention of yours, and why are you asking more than i requesting?
may be single life is so into me than keep ones' beside you
everything you need to ask for the permission, hey, i been single for so long, i can live all by myself
why am i suffering cause of you, shouldn't we must stay happily?
because of your stubbornness, i have changed myself a lot until i can't recognize myself anymore
i thought we would be happy but eventually i am so suffering
i didn't born to seek your happiness, if you wanted a girl like that, then go find her.
i am not the type you wanted.
Saturday, October 12, 2013
人生就是要不停地戰鬥
請讓我說得深奧些
回想以前，我總是很深不是深不可測，
要套我說話其實很容易，只是所認識的詞彙和知識也有限，所以不是QIM
彷彿時間過得太快，
有點跟不上步伐總覺得身邊的朋友變化很快又很大，
有時候，我很懷疑我是否認不認識他們不過算了。
再過一年，我真的非常有可能要告別讀書日子，
正式投入社會社會的殘酷，我懂很多。
超懷念以前背著書包，雖然背著一份學生的責任，
但是我從未盡責過讀書也漫不經心，
上課靈魂玩失踪
但是每天都是祈禱快點下課的小單純，上課的小天真。
我啊，超矛盾。
現在踏入大學的第三年，
壓力無形的增加想真正搞好半天掉的成績，
需要很很很努力
看到戰友的撲克臉，就知道他們多麼的沒活力
為了多加活力分，不管自己的分量夠不夠，就參加了馬拉松，腳車賽
雖然後悔了，但是還是需要擦屁股死硬着頭皮也得上！
人生就是要不停地戰鬥嘛！
Saturday, July 27, 2013
winner?
I am just getting bored with it.
I know i shouldn't but since i'm always the winner.
Finally got someone just hit the main thing in my heart
I admit it. I am playful. I am so arrogant.
Yes i think that i am always the winner, but who knows future?
But i love the feeling. Though it's bored.
Monday, July 22, 2013
Recent
Haven't been to this blog after a long time
Well i still good in shape, just some breakout on my face due to hormone imbalance
but now it is recovering so don't talk about my face.
And how do i treat my breakout?
Easy, i drinks traditional chinese medicine and apply pimples cream. Monthly facial and also daily face wash.
Took me about 3-4 months to recover.
Still left some acne marks. but i am satisfy with the result.
No ice and cold water, no spicy food and oily food. (well since it is healing so i started to consume some curry and fried chicken =.=)
Now i am having holiday, for 4 months, couldn't believe it is so long.
Well talking about my healthy lifestyle, i am so sorry that none of this i have accomplish
Jogging? Sorry i didn't, but i replace it as sit up for 50 times a day and will have cycling every once a week
About my working life, sad to say i just 'fire' the boss, damn angry with the salary she paid.
Promise me the money but end up cut down my salary.
Nahh.. about my life, it's been one year and four month my both grandpa passed away
yes i do miss them. until now, i did cry secretly on my bed.
It's normal right? But i do miss them, i am so regret of spending so less time with them.
Lately just getting my result, to me i am still alright.
Comfort zone but i am hoping for more.
I am the one who believe nothing is impossible but depending on my will, oh no, i can't
My will isn't strong enough. My eagerness is stopped by comfort.
I hope for the best, i know i can do it, just my will become so weak.
I am so lazy to fight for the best.
I need something to motivate me.
Now my will is relying on a Promise, i hope i will not disappointing them.
Today went for a ride trip. Short, but enjoyable. =)
I am so in love with cycling.
Although my skin is getting darker but that is none of my concern. xD
Got to head to sleep.
Healthy lifestyle what.
Night guys.
Well i still good in shape, just some breakout on my face due to hormone imbalance
but now it is recovering so don't talk about my face.
And how do i treat my breakout?
Easy, i drinks traditional chinese medicine and apply pimples cream. Monthly facial and also daily face wash.
Took me about 3-4 months to recover.
Still left some acne marks. but i am satisfy with the result.
No ice and cold water, no spicy food and oily food. (well since it is healing so i started to consume some curry and fried chicken =.=)
Now i am having holiday, for 4 months, couldn't believe it is so long.
Well talking about my healthy lifestyle, i am so sorry that none of this i have accomplish
Jogging? Sorry i didn't, but i replace it as sit up for 50 times a day and will have cycling every once a week
About my working life, sad to say i just 'fire' the boss, damn angry with the salary she paid.
Promise me the money but end up cut down my salary.
Nahh.. about my life, it's been one year and four month my both grandpa passed away
yes i do miss them. until now, i did cry secretly on my bed.
It's normal right? But i do miss them, i am so regret of spending so less time with them.
Lately just getting my result, to me i am still alright.
Comfort zone but i am hoping for more.
I am the one who believe nothing is impossible but depending on my will, oh no, i can't
My will isn't strong enough. My eagerness is stopped by comfort.
I hope for the best, i know i can do it, just my will become so weak.
I am so lazy to fight for the best.
I need something to motivate me.
Now my will is relying on a Promise, i hope i will not disappointing them.
Today went for a ride trip. Short, but enjoyable. =)
I am so in love with cycling.
Although my skin is getting darker but that is none of my concern. xD
Got to head to sleep.
Healthy lifestyle what.
Night guys.
Well sometime
May be im not get used to the relationship stuff.
To me i dont wanna lost freedom.
Actually is i got my life.
Well yes i am selfish, but i treat the same way too.
You have your life, you can mix with your friend, it's your freedom.
I have my life but i won't do the thing that over limit.
I do care about your feeling, just i don't think every 24 hour i have to tell what am i doing or bla bla bla
I miss you just i don't tell, I don't care doesn't mean i really don't.
Well everyone around me knows that.
Sometime i feel that we are not in a relationship
Not the insecurity, not about the concern, just it's bothering me.
I hope for the understanding, trust and freedom.
Seriously, i don't understand you, what you tell, i always feel some important issues you left out.
I wanted to know, but you kept on pretending.
Like i am talking about your feeling, i can tell that it's between us, but you don't tell it straight.
And give a faith on me, talks with boy doesn't mean we have something behind.
They can be my friends too.
I also didn't restrict you to have a gap between girls.
Cause i trust you.
Freedom always been our problem cause i always need it.
Frankly i prefer to hang out with my friend, family or going out alone having some fun time.
I know it's necessary to tell you but i just don't want to.
Cause it will cause me miserable.
You like me cause i am independent so you should let it go on me.
Believe me, if you do, then i am always yours.
To me i dont wanna lost freedom.
Actually is i got my life.
Well yes i am selfish, but i treat the same way too.
You have your life, you can mix with your friend, it's your freedom.
I have my life but i won't do the thing that over limit.
I do care about your feeling, just i don't think every 24 hour i have to tell what am i doing or bla bla bla
I miss you just i don't tell, I don't care doesn't mean i really don't.
Well everyone around me knows that.
Sometime i feel that we are not in a relationship
Not the insecurity, not about the concern, just it's bothering me.
I hope for the understanding, trust and freedom.
Seriously, i don't understand you, what you tell, i always feel some important issues you left out.
I wanted to know, but you kept on pretending.
Like i am talking about your feeling, i can tell that it's between us, but you don't tell it straight.
And give a faith on me, talks with boy doesn't mean we have something behind.
They can be my friends too.
I also didn't restrict you to have a gap between girls.
Cause i trust you.
Freedom always been our problem cause i always need it.
Frankly i prefer to hang out with my friend, family or going out alone having some fun time.
I know it's necessary to tell you but i just don't want to.
Cause it will cause me miserable.
You like me cause i am independent so you should let it go on me.
Believe me, if you do, then i am always yours.
Friday, February 15, 2013
seriously, i need to maintain a healthy lifestyle neither physically nor mentally!
Targets:
1. Jog everyday? Have to work hard on that.
2. Sleep before 11pm? Is that possible for me, late owl?
3. Eat veg more fruit less oily food less meat? Er.. in the process to cut down oily food. Meat? Think 1st.
4. Have breakfast as habit? As long as i can wake up on time.
5. Read books? I wondering can i exchange with drama? Funny dramas~
6. Travel? This been my dreams, wondering when i have that budget to go for it. At least once in a year i have to get out from Penang Island and live for 1 weeks at outside. Still considering Perth travelling or working in Hatyai or Bangkok. Working is not bad for me cause don't have to watch out for the budget, can claim from company. But society full of traps, have to be careful on that.
7. Hang out with friends at least twice a month. But those friends are mostly my classmates, see everyday. Cant hang out always cause i need to take care of my grandma, pity to see her alone.
8. Work part time? Ahh.. waiting my 3 months sem break, can go for work.
So far 8 on list. Work hard on that, gonna jogging now. 4.52am now.
1. Jog everyday? Have to work hard on that.
2. Sleep before 11pm? Is that possible for me, late owl?
3. Eat veg more fruit less oily food less meat? Er.. in the process to cut down oily food. Meat? Think 1st.
4. Have breakfast as habit? As long as i can wake up on time.
5. Read books? I wondering can i exchange with drama? Funny dramas~
6. Travel? This been my dreams, wondering when i have that budget to go for it. At least once in a year i have to get out from Penang Island and live for 1 weeks at outside. Still considering Perth travelling or working in Hatyai or Bangkok. Working is not bad for me cause don't have to watch out for the budget, can claim from company. But society full of traps, have to be careful on that.
7. Hang out with friends at least twice a month. But those friends are mostly my classmates, see everyday. Cant hang out always cause i need to take care of my grandma, pity to see her alone.
8. Work part time? Ahh.. waiting my 3 months sem break, can go for work.
So far 8 on list. Work hard on that, gonna jogging now. 4.52am now.
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