winner?

I am just getting bored with it.

I know i shouldn't but since i'm always the winner.

Finally got someone just hit the main thing in my heart

I admit it. I am playful. I am so arrogant. 

Yes i think that i am always the winner, but who knows future?

But i love the feeling. Though it's bored. 

 

多了一份稱呼，多了一份責任。哀哉

Recent

Haven't been to this blog after a long time
Well i still good in shape, just some breakout on my face due to hormone imbalance
but now it is recovering so don't talk about my face.
And how do i treat my breakout?
Easy, i drinks traditional chinese medicine and apply pimples cream. Monthly facial and also daily face wash.
Took me about 3-4 months to recover.
Still left some acne marks. but i am satisfy with the result.
No ice and cold water, no spicy food and oily food. (well since it is healing so i started to consume some curry and fried chicken =.=)

Now i am having holiday, for 4 months, couldn't believe it is so long.
Well talking about my healthy lifestyle, i am so sorry that none of this i have accomplish
Jogging? Sorry i didn't, but i replace it as sit up for 50 times a day and will have cycling every once a week
About my working life, sad to say i just 'fire' the boss, damn angry with the salary she paid.
Promise me the money but end up cut down my salary.

Nahh.. about my life, it's been one year and four month my both grandpa passed away
yes i do miss them. until now, i did cry secretly on my bed.
It's normal right? But i do miss them, i am so regret of spending so less time with them.

Lately just getting my result, to me i am still alright.
Comfort zone but i am hoping for more.
I am the one who believe nothing is impossible but depending on my will, oh no, i can't
My will isn't strong enough. My eagerness is stopped by comfort.
I hope for the best, i know i can do it, just my will become so weak.
I am so lazy to fight for the best.
I need something to motivate me.
Now my will is relying on a Promise, i hope i will not disappointing them.

Today went for a ride trip. Short, but enjoyable. =)
I am so in love with cycling.
Although my skin is getting darker but that is none of my concern. xD

Got to head to sleep.
Healthy lifestyle what.
Night guys.

Well sometime

May be im not get used to the relationship stuff.
To me i dont wanna lost freedom.
Actually is i got my life.
Well yes i am selfish, but i treat the same way too.
You have your life, you can mix with your friend, it's your freedom.
I have my life but i won't do the thing that over limit.
I do care about your feeling, just i don't think every 24 hour i have to tell what am i doing or bla bla bla
I miss you just i don't tell, I don't care doesn't mean i really don't.
Well everyone around me knows that.
Sometime i feel that we are not in a relationship
Not the insecurity, not about the concern, just it's bothering me.
I hope for the understanding, trust and freedom.
Seriously, i don't understand you, what you tell, i always feel some important issues you left out.
I wanted to know, but you kept on pretending.
Like i am talking about your feeling, i can tell that it's between us, but you don't tell it straight.
And give a faith on me, talks with boy doesn't mean we have something behind.
They can be my friends too.
I also didn't restrict you to have a gap between girls.
Cause i trust you.
Freedom always been our problem cause i always need it.
Frankly i prefer to hang out with my friend, family or going out alone having some fun time.
I know it's necessary to tell you but i just don't want to.
Cause it will cause me miserable.
You like me cause i am independent so you should let it go on me.
Believe me, if you do, then i am always yours.