him? or him?

i guess i still have to worry about myself after exam.
what should i tell him? and him? ==

Sore Throat before my final exam.. Hope it wont go worst..

I'm kind of racist.. LOL

信仰很重要?

有个宗教信仰，是好事。但是太过于迷信，是坏事。
渐渐地被基督教洗脑，现今对信仰什么教都是迷
在基督教的看法：道教是Evil Spirit, 佛教释迦摩呢是一个好人而已。

我相信佛教的存在，我也相信所谓的因果轮回。
我对宗教，永远抱着一个态度：它是灯，指引他人在黑暗中步行，向善。

从小，我就在教堂度过，也经常去教堂，现在即使有人叫我去，我也是有去的
接触过许多基督教徒，我能感受到他们的真诚与幸福
神，使他们更不一样。他们相信它的存在而它给予力量，支柱着他们

或许我还不需要宗教来支撑，暂时
有个朋友说：宗教的宗旨是教导每个人找回自己。很有深度一下
什么叫找回自己？
每个人从懂事就被许多因素包围，有些人身不由己，有些人是故意的
而自己真正的想法永远都不想懂，甚至是忘了
你还记得婴儿的时候吗？想必你都忘了，也许那个就是你自己。

宗教的重要性也在于自己
你是好人，人家就自然联想到宗教指引他向善的
你是坏人，那么自然你是没有宗教信仰的人
现在有没有宗教信仰都是一样
最重要还是自己愿不愿意

而我？ i trust myself XD

Now i realize my English level is degrading

Complaining

I cannot 'tahan' anymore

I know i shouldnt have the right to complain

I know this is my duty

But why? I just wish to have 1 day of mine, doing my stuff, surfing net, do whatever i like, sleep at my own room, having my own space

Not being someone's driver, I'm not a thing

I'm not being lazy I'm just tiring of these

How i wish i'm oversea now

Dont have to bother about this family business

I tried to be the best of me, accompany both granny, trying to present the strong of me (I didn't drop a tear in my grandpas' funeral) I used to cry alone, not in front of strangers, but you didn't know that I've been crying for whole night, alone, shed off my tear trying not to make any noises. 

However, you all still complaining about me? Cause if i'm cry, then you all will be crying, you know how much forces to cause me push a smile? I'm trying to reserve my time for all of you. All i want is 1 day sleep at my own house and rest,but you choose to ignore me.
You're using my sympathy, you know my weakness cause you are my mother
Accompany grannies is my duty i know it
But.....Granny's son came back and how i wish i could sleep at my own house.
Every night i couldn't sleep well, cause i used to sleep alone on my bed, a little noise may have the possibility to wake me up.. Granny is making noises every night, i couldn't sleep well, every 3 hours.. how pathetic is it

I'm dying now

We just friend, now and forever

Cut My Hair.. Shorter but i felt good and free!

個性？

是的，我有個習慣。與其說是習慣。還不如說是個性？我有很多不一的性格。雖然，我跟朋友出來約會，我是比較靜，冷淡，但是我想挑明：我越表示冷淡，其實也是借這塊臉來掩飾開心。只是我比較不敢表示出來。外表還是騙了人。

第二，我喜歡跟人吵架，是我的怪癖。但是我通常都是跟別人吵了，才明白她的想法，我喜歡這樣。冷戰不是很好的選擇，因為我不懂你在想什麼。要不，就像我跟另外一些朋友，什麼都說白。做到嗎？

放開一些，視野遼闊。是的，我覺得我放下了。執著不是好事。

最近忙完了作業，就要開始讀書考試。超忙，而且表弟在檳城讀書，每天都要載他去學校。多了一個稱呼，多了一份責任：做DRIVER。

還以為我跟他們倆的事已經完結，不懂又回到了原點。無言。我還在猶豫些什麼？

這個是我夢想的手錶，價錢也不菲。怎麼辦？==

Yes!

Officially done my two assignment 6000 words! 

Happy although still left referencing, easy job for me XD

I thought we could have enough time..

There is no turning back

I ain't going keep my words

My heart is freeze

Looking previous post, my blood is pumping argghh

you don't understand cause you never try to know

I'm done I'm totally pissed off!!
Ask yourself, how many times of your mistakes
A fool will know that being a guarantor need to pay all the mess left by the borrower
It's twice within half year you repeating the mistake
Yesh! My plan is spoiled, my trip is spoiled of YOU!
How would you gain my respect again?
You work as a businessman for over twenty years, and now you looked at your mess!
Won't you feel the shame?
I'm not gonna lay my hope on your stupid whatever 'kang tao' is it!

SHUT IT UP

Yes, indeed

I'm glad that you still remember me

And every time I was some kind of meant to you

But you noticed it wasn't me

Thank you for trusting me

In return, i'll pay my love and trust too

And i mean it =)

I learnt that communication is a matter

ENDING

Well, that is end for US now..
I do respect whatever your're doing, just I cannot accept the way you did without thinking of my feeling
So.. We are done.