Complaining

I cannot 'tahan' anymore

I know i shouldnt have the right to complain

I know this is my duty

But why? I just wish to have 1 day of mine, doing my stuff, surfing net, do whatever i like, sleep at my own room, having my own space

Not being someone's driver, I'm not a thing

I'm not being lazy I'm just tiring of these

How i wish i'm oversea now

Dont have to bother about this family business

I tried to be the best of me, accompany both granny, trying to present the strong of me (I didn't drop a tear in my grandpas' funeral) I used to cry alone, not in front of strangers, but you didn't know that I've been crying for whole night, alone, shed off my tear trying not to make any noises. 

However, you all still complaining about me? Cause if i'm cry, then you all will be crying, you know how much forces to cause me push a smile? I'm trying to reserve my time for all of you. All i want is 1 day sleep at my own house and rest,but you choose to ignore me.
You're using my sympathy, you know my weakness cause you are my mother
Accompany grannies is my duty i know it
But.....Granny's son came back and how i wish i could sleep at my own house.
Every night i couldn't sleep well, cause i used to sleep alone on my bed, a little noise may have the possibility to wake me up.. Granny is making noises every night, i couldn't sleep well, every 3 hours.. how pathetic is it

I'm dying now